Everyone likes being comfortable.
Very rarely do people make theirs lives more difficult than they already are.
As for me, I believe I am one of those people. I do what is asked of me and
keep to myself. I am comfortable around those who know me, while I am reserved
in the face of new experiences.
Personally, I do not enjoy
discussing my career goals with others. I am so afraid that people will judge me
or not think I will be good enough for that career. I often brush off the
question of “what do you want to be when you grow up?” by simply responding, “I
don’t know!” In my heart I know what I want to do but other than a very select
group of people, nobody else knows. My parents do not even fully know what I have
in store for myself.
So I decided to make a larger
effort towards this career path. I e-mailed the Chemistry department head, also
a member of the Pre-Med Committee to set up an appointment to talk. She warmly
welcomed me to come any time during the office hours she provided me. I was
nervous about meeting with her. This is the first time I ever really made
progress in pursuing what I really want to do with my life.
Today, Monday, I had my meeting
with her. This was so out of my comfort zone. I was nervous because I had never
met Dr. Pang before and I was nervous because I hated talking about my future.
This whole situation screamed, “uncomfortable!!!” to me. However, I got myself
to do it because this opportunity is important to me.
In the end, she ended up being very
informative and friendly. I really had nothing to worry about but my
personality would not let myself believe this. I feel this simple experience
has made me more open to seek help and talk to others about my goals. This will
be very beneficial for the rest of my educational journey. I want to succeed in
school, I want to go to Medical School and I want to be happy. Everything seems
to have fallen into place for my future. It is now up to me to make those dreams
my reality.
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